Thursday, September 30, 2004
{ 5:28 AM }
aiya....sian leh....u noe wat? we spent so much time rushing tt stupid Lit project....now at last finish liao...whole body soooo light. dis few dae happen sooo mani things....da more u think of sth, da more u dun wanna 4get it...
"tt da rain fall dwn, n break my heart..." dis few daes raining quite heavily leh. Think back a lot of things. it all happened within such a short period....i can't stand it animore!!!! BETRAYAL!!!I realli hate da feeling of it. Stupid Mildred.....made me cry u noe? break my record of not cryin' in skul, n is the first person in skul tt saw me cry, bsides another person lar) i treated her soooo well n she treated me lyk tt....it dosen't pay 2 b good.....wat a precious lesson learnt. HATE HER TO THE CORE!!! I'LL NEVA 4GIVE HER 4 HER "GOOD" DEEDS!!!! Spoil our whole project wif her actin'. it's actually not tt bad, but how culd she walk out on us?? wat a "good" n "loyal" friend she is!
Friday, September 17, 2004
{ 6:18 AM }
wat a boring dae! have 2 stay bac 4 supplymentry, den listen 2 my teacher tok crap....sian ah! my mom went 2 Thailand 2dae. sooooo happi! nobody nag at me liao. hahahaz....confirmed a counsellor alreadi. got tt big badge....glad tt at long last everything is over. I feel mad these few daes. dunno y, but I'm juz mad. sometimes laugh until lyk wanna cry lyk tt. aiya....mayb it's normal 4 growing up children. when a person is beside u, u dunno how 2 appreciate tt person, but when tt person is gone, u'll start 2 ask yrself, "y when tt person is here I dunno how 2 appreciate her/him leh?" sometimes, I feel tt human is a type of very funni creature. their thinking is very unique. y can't we b lyk other creatures? so....innocent? we hav too much feelings alreadi...vex, angry, sad, happi etc. other creatures can love their fellow mates, but we human is not lyk tt. we always want everything 4 ourselfs n can do anithing juz 2 achieve wat we wanted. we can even betray the person we love most. hahaz....mayb I'm juz tinkin' tooooo much...hahahahazzzz
Monday, September 06, 2004
{ 6:52 AM }
This few daes have been unlucky fer me. I dun understand y, but I always get scolded. The fault is not wif me n I'll get the scolding. Ridiculous! I feel the worst is yet to come (mayb fer me), the onli wae 2 solve it is to not hide from it, but 2 face it....wif great courage. Easier saed den done. I'm totally sadded. The feeling is sooooo hard 2 describe."No words could describe th agony of my soul" This few daes mani things happened. Izzit meant 2 strengthen me? The feeling of betrayal, lost of hope, worrying, helpless...I now understand. Last time I usually tell ppl,"Cryin' will not make u stronger, we have 2 stop crying n leran to b stronger!" But now, I understand the real meaning of crying. Ppl cry b'coz dey can't control deir saddness animore. Dey have 2 let go. Dey cry b'coz dey r hurted, dey hearts r pain. Crying is the onli wae 2 make u feel better.